I don't often think of myself as afraid. As a child I would jump on the back of a pony and gallop across open fields. As an adult I would pull myself up a rock wall to stand at the edge and feel the wind in my hair. I love living wildly free. But, as a mother, as a wife, as a health coach, someone navigating this world of the internet and opinions, I find myself immovable with fear. Instead of posting a blog or sharing a photo of food, I worry about how others will perceive me. So, I do nothing. I keep myself quiet, I hide my life away. Safe from opinions, criticism, and ridicule.
Fear can keep us from more than we realize. It starts small, but quickly locks us away in a cavern of emptiness. It takes every insecurity, every lack, and preys upon them. Rather than maintaining safety or peace, we actually open ourselves to all of the terrors that we were trying to avoid. Fear becomes our reality, when we try to run from it.
Instead we must march bravely forward. We must look at what holds us back and do exactly that which terrifies us. I must share my life with others. I must openly admit my fears and failures. Because if I don't, if I only share my momentary successes, than no one sees the real me. She is locked, quiet, hidden, and put away.
I am afraid. I am also brave.
I am striving to share this part of my world. To invite you in to what makes me who I am. I want to share all of my failures and flaws, so that you can realize success doesn't come when we're perfect. True accomplishment is attained through the open and real pursuit of a life that demands more than we can give. When we have nothing we rise up and do our best.
I am not perfectly healthy. I am not fully free. I don't always do life well. I can get stuck in my own thoughts and insecurities. I also have the ability to push past all of my lack and build my own mountain. I hope you'll join with me as I move forward and strive to better myself.
I will share photos of food, recipe ideas, exercise inspiration, parenting struggles, and how I pursue my marriage. I hope you'll stick around and enjoy the journey with me. As I begin, please bear with my lack of photography skills and my struggle to choose the right words. Thank you for commenting and letting me know when I get it right. For now, it's a scary world, let's go be brave.